Responsibilities

I am feeling old.

It is Freshers week. Everyone is young and carefree, and I have been in a bad mood. This has been caused by a number of factors, including:

a) It's dandelion season. That's daddy-long-legs to anyone but me. I have a complete phobia, and there was one in the car with me the other day. I cried. Which leads me to...

b) Emotions. I am incredibly fluctuant at the moment, with giggle fits and crying in public becoming increasingly common. Unknown origin, hoping to dear god I'm not pregnant.

c) Getting up on Sunday morning to discover my tyres had been slashed, then having to cancel my home care shift in order to sit in Kwik Fit and have the pleasure of paying them to fix it. Conveniently linked to...

d) Lack of money. I got my loan in August, and as I am terrible with money I have spent most of it. I earnt a small fortune this summer, what with my two summer schools (thinking about it, only one has paid me... hmmm), casual work on campus, and washing old ladies for 15 hours a day. I'm still well below the zero mark. Sigh.

There've been a few other minor things too. I think it's all getting a bit much at the moment. Perhaps starting back at uni (and being a third year 'student doctor') is just taking some getting used to. I had to learn to take bloods the other day. Bearing in mind I was scared of the video where they showed someone taking blood from a fake rubber arm, I've not been looking forward to having to do it on real people! On Monday I start what used to be known as 'nursing week' but is now known as 'interprofessional experience'. I'm really looking forward to it, despite being on Renal Medicine and hating anything to do with kidneys. I recently did my training to be an HCA, and was absolutely appalled by how little I learnt, therefore I am going to utilise this week to shadow someone and find out what the hell I'm supposed to do when I turn up for my first shift.

Here's to hoping they don't make me do anything important...